Day: 9. April 2010

Okay, I wrote this because a song made me. Seriously. This is not for people who cannot take the thought of death. If you can…then have at it.

I’m gone. It’s over. I’ll see you…never. I’ll miss you.

The last thing I remember seeing was your face. And you were crying. Why? We all knew it was for the best..I think.

I…I can barely remember my name now. But I can remember yours. It’s the only thing I have to comfort me in this…place.

Now I wonder…why did it happen? They said they could save me.

I’m watching you right now. You’re screaming at the doctors. Asking them why they lied.

Why are you so sad? I thought you didn’t like me. You never seemed to, anyway.

That’s when it hit me. You lied. How can you yell at someone about lying, when you were the one lying most of our lives?

It’s been several months now. I’ve been waiting for you to tell me. To confess all the things that you were protecting with lies.

You seem to like visiting me. Almost every week you come, and leave me flowers. They are useless to me, it’s not like I can take them.

Now it’s been almost a year. I followed your car to my grave. But then I saw her.

Do you realize who she is? More importantly, why did you bring her to my grave?

I’m selfish. I truly am. It hurts when your best friend starts dating your sister. It really does.

For the first time in a year, I see my name. It’s Jane.

You walked back to your car with my sister. And you had your arm around her.

I thought you were better than that. I really did.

It’s been three years now. Ironically, after you broke up with my sister, she died. They buried her right next to me. Now I know that her name was Naomi. She sometimes come with me to see you.

Aren’t you happy?

It’s been another month. You were just taken to jail.

You turned yourself in for the deaths of a 15 year old, me, and a 17 year old, Naomi.

I didn’t do anything to you, though.

You didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up, did you? I wanted to be a detective.

I figured it out after the first month. It wouldn’t have done me any good to tell Naomi, because she may have hurt herself. It’s still possible to hurt yourself when your in between worlds.

All I wanted to do was grow up. To start a family. To get my first job, share my first kiss.

It was all cut short. I’m happy for Naomi, though. She got to have two of those things. One of which involved you.

It’s been 5 years since my death. I would have turned 20 today. Naomi would have been 19.

You tried to kill yourself a few times. Now why is that? Did you want to see us again?

It wouldn’t have done you any good, though. You wouldn’t have found us.

Your starting to talk. It’s funny, because I don’t even remember your name anymore. I don’t care enough to pay attention, but I usually still take Naomi to you. She still loved you, you know.

I heard you mumble something. It sounded like you were telling me that your name was…Hain.

You said you loved me. But then you did something terrible, that eventually lead to my death.

You said you dated Naomi because you hoped you would be just like me. Honestly, I wouldn’t have said that. You really hurt her.

But then you did that same thing. You won’t tell us what it was.

It’s been about 5 months. You have received the death sentence. That’s just another thing that you won’t tell us about.

Actually, Naomi doesn’t even know yet. She has a frail heart. I couldn’t hurt her anymore than I’m sure you already have.

You just told me what you did. You poisoned my drink. It was called…I don’t remember. I was in such a trance, I only heard half of what you said. Then you said that you were planning on marrying me later.

You then told me when you were scheduled to die. You are to be executed in three months. A rather long wait, I suppose.

Death makes you wiser. It really does. You can travel around the world in an instant. It’s actually fun when you see others of our kind, because they seem so shocked, because they are usually new.

Most don’t stay here long. They eventually pass. Naomi actually asked to stay here. She’s really brave.

You broke her heart, yet she still comes back.

You are to be executed today. I look forward to seeing you.

Love you, Hain.

She’s a nice mom.

She let’s me go on the computer and I can write something.com.

Do you want to see a book called Secrets of Zoom?

My mom would let me , but not doom books.